Thursday, March 17, 2011

Sentimental Stuff

I remember being on a movie date with my college boyfriend. After we entered, he handed me my ticket stub, which I immediately tossed in the trash. The panged look on his face was so sad! He couldn't believe that I didn't have a shoebox somewhere in my bedroom collecting tokens of the time we had spent together. It had never occurred to me to do such a thing.

Maybe I didn't start dating young enough to develop attachments to those things? Maybe I relied on my memories? Maybe I still don't get it? I don't scrapbook or shadowbox or even bother to display photographs in my home or office. I just have never felt the need to keep things as a reminder of...well...anything.

So, it's really unusual that I had a shoebox of ticket stubs and event programs and DVDs to discard tonight as I finished my packing. And I think I almost had an emotion over it?!

Fortunately, the emotion didn't last long and I'm over it. But I don't know that I'm over the fact that somewhere, somehow, I became that girl. I'm not sure I understand why I even thought to try her out. I'm really unsure of what I was hoping to gain from it. But maybe, it was a sign of hope? Maybe I thought there was going to be a story worth telling? And like a good performer would, maybe I wanted to be sure I had all the right props for telling that story?

But that story has ended. And now I look forward to creating one with a different ending. I'm just not decided on how I feel about the props.


Christy {The Girl Who Ate Everything} said...

Oh you are so John's sister. I keep some stuff but know that I'm just going to throw it away in a year or two. I think it's a good thing that your not the typical emotional girl but that may have been bad for us sister-in-laws. I think I'm pretty non-emotional but the first couple years of marriage I'm sure John thought he married a wacko. He said whenever you got mad you went to your room. Love you!

A Little Sass said...

I am totally that girl and proud of it! I love finding those random little things that bring back memories of happy, inspiring, growing or exciting times.